MOM who are youu ??? ...... DAY 2 !
I would have never thought the the women who birthed me could hate me SO much. I though that a mother is supposed to be there and love and support you NO matter what !
My Mom is Cruel, Mean, Spiteful, Insensitive, and is a hypocrite. What kind of mother makes fat jokes about her child, that has always had a problem being FAT !!!!
Does she know that she hurts me every time she makes these jokes..... Like Go Run Around The Block...... or She'll say You have to Run Home or Sprint ! ...... or Get Your FAT ass up and do some exercise..... Should you be eating that ?....... Go make a salad...... Don't eat No Bread Or Potatoes ! ........ Sit up !....... or Sani you are HUGE ! youu need to go workout ! ...... She even compares me to my size 0 cousin who runs track....... See Bridget stays in shape .
All I Do is cry !!!!!!!!
Mom who are You ???
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
IN THE BEGINNING ....... Day ONE !
IN THE BEGINNING ....... Day One !
My life starts of as a baby, born to 2 parents Mom and Dad. Apparently, I don't know how life was between being a new born and maybe 2 yrs old, but I remember my life at 3 yrs old. My father (who was never married to my mom) left us one night. I remember sitting in the living room watching TV and spining on this new toy I had just received for christmas. After that was likee ----- BLANK !
Some years later, I found out that my mother was seeing this new guy named EARL . He was nice, and he brought me whatever I wanted. Of course, when my father found out he was furious !!! He didn't want Earl around me. He got soooo jealous, and had continuous argumants with my mom about him. Even though I was young and could barely know what was really going on I some how had these mixed emotions on who really loved me --- My father (who abandoned me) or my mothers new boyfriend (who brought me gifts).
After arguement, to arguement my dad started seeing other women. My mom didn't care as long as I was safe. But this women named MALBA came along and blew my whole life with my dad away ! I like Malba, she took me to the movies and skating. She even introduced me to these kids she lived next door too. So that was pretty nice.
Next thing I know ..... my mom and Earl get married !!! Whoaa . (Oh I'm Happy if you didn't get it) I was probably like 9. Haha on the day of the wedding my mom gave so much attension to Earl, that I believed she totally forgot about me. Sooo I cried like a baby (that didn't work) . I went in a corner to see if someone will come for me (that didn't work niether). So I pretented to have this huge tooth ache ( HAHA it worked) . I had all of mommy's attention on me. Anyway, its time for the flower girl --- thats ME ! I come down with tears in my Eyes and a grin on my face. Everyones in the chapel like AWWH Smile Pooh ! soo I did proudly. Then, mommy comes down (Looking pretty as ever). They get married and then its picture time ..... Mommy's not giving me anymore attention sooo I cry again (Even in the pictures) . Minutes later I'm with the gang at a RESORT where the reception is heard. My cousin and I are in our dresses and tuxedo's (jumping on the beds upstairs). Lol thats all I remember that nite.
A year or so passes, and my dad marries Malba, but I'm not in the wedding at all (Sucks Right? I know) . Next thing I know..... malba's pregnant with my sister (she gave birth the day I was visiting my dad and her). Madisen is her name ! She cute, sassy and dramatic (Like ME ) . Then came SPIRIT. My 2nd Lil Sister..... Now I don't like this idea........ TO BE CONTINUED LATER !!!!
My step-dad is awesome ! I love him . He's more like a father then my own father is. 2 yrs later my mom and him have a big argument and file for divorce !!!! (OH NOOO) . Yep, they did. I cried and cried . I loved him, but hated how he treated my mommy .
I was 11, outside rifing my bike with my cousins (in our new neighborhood) I come home and my mommy is GONE ! My grandmaa (Nannie) Tells me to come in her room (sit and listen carefully). Something bad has happened to EARL . HE WAS KILLED !!!!! ..............................
After My Step-dad died. I felt like my biological father had died. EARL WAS MY FATHER ! AND HE'S DEAD! ever since then, when someone askes or talks about him I SAY MY DADDY IS DEAD! ..................................................................................................................................
My life starts of as a baby, born to 2 parents Mom and Dad. Apparently, I don't know how life was between being a new born and maybe 2 yrs old, but I remember my life at 3 yrs old. My father (who was never married to my mom) left us one night. I remember sitting in the living room watching TV and spining on this new toy I had just received for christmas. After that was likee ----- BLANK !
Some years later, I found out that my mother was seeing this new guy named EARL . He was nice, and he brought me whatever I wanted. Of course, when my father found out he was furious !!! He didn't want Earl around me. He got soooo jealous, and had continuous argumants with my mom about him. Even though I was young and could barely know what was really going on I some how had these mixed emotions on who really loved me --- My father (who abandoned me) or my mothers new boyfriend (who brought me gifts).
After arguement, to arguement my dad started seeing other women. My mom didn't care as long as I was safe. But this women named MALBA came along and blew my whole life with my dad away ! I like Malba, she took me to the movies and skating. She even introduced me to these kids she lived next door too. So that was pretty nice.
Next thing I know ..... my mom and Earl get married !!! Whoaa . (Oh I'm Happy if you didn't get it) I was probably like 9. Haha on the day of the wedding my mom gave so much attension to Earl, that I believed she totally forgot about me. Sooo I cried like a baby (that didn't work) . I went in a corner to see if someone will come for me (that didn't work niether). So I pretented to have this huge tooth ache ( HAHA it worked) . I had all of mommy's attention on me. Anyway, its time for the flower girl --- thats ME ! I come down with tears in my Eyes and a grin on my face. Everyones in the chapel like AWWH Smile Pooh ! soo I did proudly. Then, mommy comes down (Looking pretty as ever). They get married and then its picture time ..... Mommy's not giving me anymore attention sooo I cry again (Even in the pictures) . Minutes later I'm with the gang at a RESORT where the reception is heard. My cousin and I are in our dresses and tuxedo's (jumping on the beds upstairs). Lol thats all I remember that nite.
A year or so passes, and my dad marries Malba, but I'm not in the wedding at all (Sucks Right? I know) . Next thing I know..... malba's pregnant with my sister (she gave birth the day I was visiting my dad and her). Madisen is her name ! She cute, sassy and dramatic (Like ME ) . Then came SPIRIT. My 2nd Lil Sister..... Now I don't like this idea........ TO BE CONTINUED LATER !!!!
My step-dad is awesome ! I love him . He's more like a father then my own father is. 2 yrs later my mom and him have a big argument and file for divorce !!!! (OH NOOO) . Yep, they did. I cried and cried . I loved him, but hated how he treated my mommy .
I was 11, outside rifing my bike with my cousins (in our new neighborhood) I come home and my mommy is GONE ! My grandmaa (Nannie) Tells me to come in her room (sit and listen carefully). Something bad has happened to EARL . HE WAS KILLED !!!!! ..............................
After My Step-dad died. I felt like my biological father had died. EARL WAS MY FATHER ! AND HE'S DEAD! ever since then, when someone askes or talks about him I SAY MY DADDY IS DEAD! ..................................................................................................................................
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